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The Urge to write

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So here I am again, I haven’t posted in a while. I should do something about this anyway. I do enjoy writing and just putting my thoughts and idea’s or even how I’m feeling over here simply because I can interact with people with keeping my identity secret.

I’m kinda going through this phase of my life that I can’t stand being alone. It’s not like I’m in my 30’s or something. I’m still fairly young, but I have no idea what is going on. I’ve been overly passionate about women at the moment. I’ve been doing some art every now and then. and sometimes I end up with a sketch of a nude girl of my imagination that has a fairly shape and background.

I’ve been learning more and more by the day. I kind observe myself a lot, the actions I do and then recent my steps and classify them. I sound like a nut job, and I am.

I’m also hungry, not for food, hungry for a stable normal life. With school it’s been an emotional roller coaster. One day I’m happy and excited, the day after I’d be depressed and disorentatted.

I wish I wish I can a remote control that would stop, rewind and pause life. Just like out of Adam Sandlers movie “Click”. It would be interesting,  You would be able to change things that you have done wrong. Like may things I have done.

Finally in this post I’d like to mention one last time. My ex-girlfriend.

I know it’s been a year since we were together and she probably moved on and I’m happy if she did.

This is for her. Seeing you a few weeks ago walk in to my lounge and sitting there with your friends was  a pain to witness. My looks may have changed, my thoughts may have changed. And possibly that’s why you basically passed me and didn’t even recognize me. You were a blessing, I’ve learned so much from you and I wish you did learn something from me.

But I wish not to see you again. I know you, Becca would not see this, but please if you do understand why I wish what I did. Not because of the kind of person you are. It’s because I still burn in the flames of the pains that you have caused me. You know what you did, and I know what happened, everything. I maybe a nutty hyper math art lover. I’ll out smart you on every move you’ll make.

Here is a song from one of your favorite bands, and mine as well.

Good day people.

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Written by Linus

March 8, 2010 at 1:02 am