Who am I?

I’m sad, I’m depressed. I wonder where she is, and all is a box that hold the voice of her lover. 

i search and wonder, and all i can find is darkness of the night. 

you were my moonlight when i walked the night.

and my sun when i heard of the light.  

i’m blinded by the abyss i have found my self in. 

the four walls speak of passion for you. 

my tong has fallen in to a well of wine 

and my heart had shattered as a piece of glass. 

forgive my ignorance, as i am a loveless foolish child. 

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Side note: 

I’m aware this isnt well written, but this explains my feelings at the moment. I wrote this in 5 minutes so if you dont like it, thank you. and have a good night

He’s ALIVE!

Surprisingly I’m still alive. Yes I am. Lately I’ve been extremely loaded with tons of home works and quizzes. I barely have time to just sit and write something I can post. Here is the break down, Weekdays are always on campus. Weekends, studying, hanging out with friends and that close person to my heart.

Although all of this has been happening I did have the time to read and increase my knowledge in many fields! It’s kind of funny when I meet someone for the first time and we just talk about the most random stuff, problem is they end up thinking I’m in my late 20’s or even 30’s! lol

I guess that’s all I have to say for now. I just miss blogging, it always calmed me down and made me put my thoughts in a organized way.

I’ll be posting later on! Adious for now!

I hate exams

I’m so Hating exams right now…. I need a break… Kuwait
Here I
Come..

Back On Track

For the past several months as you’ve seen I haven’t been posting much. I realized that I lost my path with everything! And lately I’ve seen the effects, because I was barely eating any healthy foods I was getting sick easily. I wasn’t eating any vegetables nor fruits. And that had devastating effects on me.

Other than that I was tired all day. I stopped doing the things I was doing after I got my “social life”, Basically isolating my self again.  I like it this way, i don’t have to worry about anything, I have more time to spend reading, studying, and just sit and think!

Since I’m back to blogging again. I would like to start a fresh start and work on that domain thingy that I wanted.

I may not post everyday or every week, but it’s always nice to have a place to just vent and write about random events!

Update

So its February already. I know I haven’t been post, almost at all. Let me inform you guys on my latest developments.

Apparently people have been telling me that I lost weight. But I feel that I got fatter.

My birthday is kinda near by. I’m sad. Only because I don’t want to grow any older! Find me a solution

2 Mormon missionaries live near by, and they tried to talk me in to coming to their Church. Honestly, I left them disappointed and crushed. I was arguing with them about if God even exists…. After we were done they though I was 8 years older than my age. That just makes me sadder.

I’m confedent that I have no luck what so ever with women. It’s not that women aren’t like attrated to me blah blah blah. It’s because  I’m a complete idiot with women I have a general interest in.

I’m perparing my self for another move, I’m changing schools soon. I’m hoping that I would like the new place I’m moving in to.

The so-called “Recession”  is fucking everything up  right now. Many of my American friends are without jobs… Whats worst is that I’ve seen people sleeping in their cars lately around my area. Homeless people are increasing too, its fucking sad.

I’m going to get back to Kuwait soon. I guess I’ll be posting daily once I get back to Kuwait.

Self Deception

I hate to admit this, but I have put reality on the side and lived for my life the way I wanted for the past 2 years.
I’m not saying that I did something wrong. All that I’m saying is when ever your from a certain class and you belong to it, don’t try to change it to the lower or higher class… because then you’ll expose your true self.
I belong to a life style that my American friends don’t belong to, and its hard to explain why I despise that class.
I learned my lesson, I have to accept who am I, and adapt myself to my what I truly am.